IVF or Adoption?

Like I said in my first post, we kept going back and forth between adoption and in vitro to expand our family.  At first we were set on IVF but then I started second guessing myself about that decision.  What if  I lost those three babies for a reason?  What if my body couldn't handle being pregnant again?  How would I handle it emotionally if I lost another child?  Am I being selfish to want to be pregnant and give birth when there are so many children in the world that needed a home.  These thoughts consumed me until I decided that adoption was the only way to go.  Shortly after starting to go to Mountain Vista we had lunch with the Pastor and his wife to talk about what we were going through.  He said to me that I just needed to pray about it and ask that if God's plans were different then mine that he change my heart so I desired what he had planned for me.  I prayed that prayer everyday.  When we started getting information on adoption I kept feeling this overwhelming pull towards in vitro.  So I started to rethink everything again and Dave and I felt that we needed to try one more time to have a child.  Right now, everything is on our side to do IVF so we are going to go for it.  We are not ruling out adoption in the future.  When I close my eyes and picture our family in 5 years I see us having our biological children and then opening our home up to fostering.  And if being a foster parent can lead to adoption then I am very excited for that to happen.